Thursday, 30 October 2014

Day 30: Suddenly overwhelmed

Today had been tracking along with a few unexpected mishaps but nothing hugely wrong. As the time to cook dinner approached, I suddenly felt overwhelmed with everything I hadn't finished that I needed to have done by the next morning, my poor time management today and emotions from a difficult work call I had made earlier. I found myself frustrated at the sudden dips in the roller coaster of emotions. I had lost the peace and rest that I had been experiencing with God. How easily it had been shaken loose with only mild testing! 

I had two options at this point- continue to dwell in these emotions and sense of overwhelm, likely taking it out on my daughter or put in some more healthy ways of processing or at least getting through to a time when processing was more possible. I chose to put on praise and worship music and dance with my daughter while prepping dinner. I chose to focus on the next task that needed doing rather than the entire list. I chose to refocus into the present with my daughter with a moderate level of success. I chose to allow myself to feel the sadness that came from having to exit a much prayed for student from the school I teach at but trust in the decision made with God and colleagues. I chose to let go of some of the ideas of what I had wanted to achieve in this day. 

I would love to say that the tiredness, feelings of overwhelm and general emotion all dissipated with these steps. They certainly helped though. It is amazing what a slight change in perspective can achieve. Life will continue to drop the unexpected, both large and small, into my days. I will choose to deal with these by going to God, changing my perspective and giving myself grace (or at least I am working on making those choices). Maybe one day the little things won't have the ability to shake me as I am more grounded and established in the love of God. 

10 comments:

  1. Yea for you for choosing to praise in the midst or overwhelmedness! It takes an active choice. I struggle with being overwhelmed too, and one of may favorite Bible verses is Psalm 61:2b, "When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the Rock that is higher than I." Thanks for posting!

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    1. Great verse! Thanks for the encouragement.

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  2. It's so easy to get overwhelmed...and to forget the steps that can help when you are. Been there, done that. Thanks for the great reminder!

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    1. My pleasure! Glad I'm not the only one.

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  3. I had this same experience yesterday. When I prayed and focused on one thing at a time, I felt much better. I even wrote "Pray" and "breathe" on my list!

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    1. I like the idea of writing those down on the list. I often write playing with my daughter on my list to keep that priority in mind.

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  4. I'd say you did well!! It's not easy to take those steps you did to redirect your day, and as you say, it doesn't mean everything will magically be awesome, but... that you DID it speaks volumes... I think as you do this more and more it will be a habit with you and you'll see that the little things are shaken off easily! Blessings!

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    1. Thanks! Some days are definitely easier to do this than others. It doesn't happen as often these days, praise God, so can take me by surprise at times.

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  5. Thank you for highlighting CHOICE. I fall, so often, into the trap of blaming the circumstances of my day for the mood I'm in all evening. This is helpful to no one: not my littles, certainly not my husband, and not at all to me. Choice. Thank you for the simple reminder that isn't really simple at all.

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    1. Glad to help others through voicing my struggles. It is easy to blame circumstances for sure! Have you read Unglued by Lysa Terkeurst? A brilliant book about dealing with our emotions.

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