Friday, 30 January 2015

The wait

For the past couple of years, "wait" seemed to be what God was wanting me to do. Scripture verses, whispers in my quiet times, sermons and so many other things kept speaking the same message to my heart. Could the wait be coming to an end now? I feel more stirrings and excitement than I have in awhile. 
This year we can stop waiting to sell this house and buy something more suitably sized for our family. This year I'm able to stop waiting to return to MOPS and contribute in the way that has been on my heart since I left two years ago. This year I sense God bringing in new moves of His Spirit into my church. 

Is the wait over?

Wednesday, 28 January 2015

Jehovah Sneaky at his best

What a tremendous privilege to work for a company that sets aside two days at the start of the year for staff to spend time in God's presence and hear from some awesome speakers. The theme this year was grace and identity. I have so much head knowledge of these concepts but know that there is so much more heart belief and transformation needed in these areas. I was also able to see today how far I have come in this journey too. It was so encouraging to me to feel so light under these concepts although definitely challenged to go further too. There wasn't that deep cleaning needed this time.

One of the speakers, Pastor Dave Storer, said that he has discovered another name for God: Jehovah Sneaky. I love this idea! It is so true that as you spend time with God, He sneaks into your heart and does deep work that you don't even have words for. I know that this has happened again for me this week. I want this to be daily for me. I want to be so conscious of His presence, His grace at work in and through me. 

I feel a shift this year. I feel that I have begun to operate more in God's strength, although I have by no means mastered this! I had a revelation this week that one of the reasons why my daughter's sleep has been such an ongoing issue is to force me to rely on God more to achieve anything. There isn't enough of my own strength and my intellect has been dulled with the sleep deprivation. It has to be Him if I am to do any of the things that I have committed to and desire to do this year. This has energised me in a strange way to recognise the good that is coming out of the tough season.

One thing that particularly challenged me was how I approach my time with God in the Scriptures each day. I rely on my own intellect to try to understand the Scriptures and apply them, even though I offer a token prayer for God to guide me at the start. I spend more time reading and applying study strategies than actually connecting with the living God. There's my next step for this year! I have been doing more listening but long to hear His voice on a daily basis. 

I am so excited at this moment. I know that there will be really tough times this year. The level of difficulty that we deal with in the students I teach, the new roles and responsibilities that I have taken on, the various areas I minister in are all daunting when I look at them. I find myself looking less at the facts and more at the truth of God. I sense a greater outpouring this year. I sense a year of greater fruit being produced. Not because of who I am, or what I am capable of but because I am more connected with my Saviour and Father. Now to walk in this daily when the struggles hit!!

Saturday, 24 January 2015

Grab this bundle while you can!!

As I was getting ready for my day yesterday morning, I received a message from my dear friend Melissa (from Digitalscrapbookinghq) telling me to check my email as she had sent me a gift. Intrigued, I checked my email. There in my inbox was the Ultimate DIY Bundle all ready for me to download!!! If you haven't heard of the Ultimate Bundles before, they are an awesome collection of ebooks and ecourses around a particular theme that is heavily discounted from what you would pay if buying them all individually. This bundle is worth over $1200 but is selling for US$34.95! They only go on sale for a few days and then are not available anymore. I was really keen to buy this one (think homemade gifts, crafts, art, home decor, photography, and plenty more) but knew we didn't have the budget before it went off sale. Melissa's generosity had me a little teary. There are SO many books that I am looking forward to reading in this bundle and several I wouldn't have thought to buy but are inspiring me to give something different a go. Melissa actually has an ecourse included in this bundle. She is gifted at digital scrapbooking and photo editing and well deserves this inclusion.

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Thursday, 22 January 2015

January verses for SSMT

We are fast heading through the first month of 2015. I am participating in the Siesta Scripture Memory Team this year, which involves choosing a new Scripture to memorise on the first and fifteenth of each month. You get to choose your own Scriptures so that they are meaningful to you. Once a month I will share the verses I am memorising and how they are speaking to me.

Relying on my own strength to try to do all I feel called to has been a huge downfall of mine. God's strength is available to me if I choose to access it. I love that this verse reminds me that God is my strength and that He is also my source of bravery and courage. I need some bravery as I look ahead to all that I am wanting to do this year, especially in my new role at MOPS. I am excited but daunted too. The part about God causing me to walk also spoke to me. Step by step progress is what I need, not overwhelming myself by trying to run ahead or look at it all at once. The Amplified Bible elaborates on the "high places" to include responsibility. This current season I am walking through doesn't have significant suffering or trouble (apart from ongoing sleep issues I guess) but I do have an increasing amount of responsibility this year. God is increasing my capacity which is leaving me feeling stretched and the year is only just beginning!

Joy, peace and hope- what's not to love about this verse!! "All joy" was the first part to grab my attention. How different would my everyday moments be if I was operating out of the joy of the Lord more often? I also love that the peace comes from believing and experiencing faith. It is not an airy, fairy concept but a reminder that it is the on the ground daily living and believing what God says that brings this peace. I long to live in this peace and not be so up and down in my emotions and anxiety levels. Don't you love the word picture of hope overflowing and bubbling over? I want to be so full of hope that it overflows into those around me, especially my students. There are so many that are hopeless and need that!

If you are participating in SSMT or any other Scripture Memorisation, share your verses in the comments!

Thursday, 15 January 2015

Thankful Thursday 1

I am in need of a re-focus on the blessings in my life to combat the toddler drama, feelings of overwhelm and tiredness. So here is a list of 10 things I am thankful for today (in no particular order).

  1. Early morning snuggles with my daughter in my bed
  2. The eager look on my daughter's face when she asks me to play with her
  3. Freshly ground coffee
  4. Craft time with my mum
  5. Our next two camping trips booked in
  6. Spontaneous cake date with a good friend
  7. Signing up the first Discussion Group Leader in my role as Discussion Group Team Leader for MOPS Whitfords
  8. The fresh seabreeze airing out my house
  9. The smell of cinnamon as we bake (even if the biscuits don't turn out as hoped for)
  10. Paint with water books to entertain a little girl while I clean
What are you thankful for today? May your eyes be open to the many little blessings throughout your day. 

Monday, 5 January 2015


I read the prompt word for this week's Tuesday at Ten and had an unexpected reaction. I felt these emotions that took me a little while to identify. Begin. A seemingly benign word. So why did I feel excitement and dread, anticipation and overwhelmed, and general angst at just the thought of writing on this? 

I needed some time to process this and what associations I have with this word. A beginning is full of potential, promise and opportunity. It is also full of the possibility of failure, tough times, hard work and defeat. The fear of the unknown comes into play. The tiredness I battle makes it seem easier just to continue with the same old patterns, habits, ways of doing than to fight past the apathy and change. 

A new year brings beginnings by its very nature. While many things in my life are staying the same this year (at least as far as I can tell at this point), there are some new beginnings. This year I will begin as a leader in the MOPS (Mothers of Preschoolers) group at my church. I LOVE this group and haven't been able to participate for the past 2 years due to work commitments so there is a lot of excitement attached to this. There is also the growing realisation of the work that will be involved in the role I will be playing. I feel capable mostly and have learned to trust God to equip me for those areas I don't feel strong in. There is still that little voice of doubt buried deep, from that place of insecurity that has steadily grown smaller but not been eradicated. 

Another change is my part time job becoming a job share with another person to increase the capacity of the program I teach. I don't foresee major issues in this but it is still an adjustment to how I have been working. I am truly thankful that I work for such an amazing organisation with spectacular people. It takes so much of the stress away.

The funniest association I discovered to the word "begin" is this voice in my head that I hear. It is the voice of an examiner telling me to begin an exam. My brain is an odd jumble at times!!

Only time will tell what other beginnings unfold in this year and how the known beginnings will play out. All I can do at this point is lean closer to Jesus and tackle the next thing in front of me.

What beginnings are you facing this year?