Friday, 28 August 2015

Alone: Five Minute Friday

My daughter is finally asleep; my husband is out doing the usual Friday night grocery shopping (yes, I do have a spectacularly amazing hubby!). I have some sweet time alone. I am becoming more and more aware of how deeply I need these times to recharge and restore my soul. I am an introvert through and through. 
The biggest wrestle that I have been having with myself of late is how I spend that alone time. I have other moments of it in my day (the joy of having only one child who is fantastic at independent play) but too often these moments are wasted. I remember too late the Kindle book that I have waiting that I've been longing to read. I forget about a project that I've been wanting to start. I don't make the most of these opportunities and end up not getting that deep reset that I crave.
Writing is one of those activities and I've been doing more of that of late. Most of it won't be published until October when the Write 31 Days challenge starts so I need to carve out time to write for the here and now too.
My goal for the rest of this alone time tonight? Hot chocolate and crochet.

How do you spend your alone time to restore your soul?

This post has been written from the prompt word "Alone" for the Five Minute Friday link up. Find out more and read some of the other contributions by clicking the button below or in the side bar.

Friday, 21 August 2015

Find: A Five Minute Friday post

As I start to get into gear, preparing for Write 31 Days, I wonder where I'll find the time, the motivation, the inspiration. Where do I find the energy, the mental focus to do any of the things I want to do? Where do I find the solution for sleep issues, for my own frustrating behaviours that eat up my day?
The more I look, the more I realise that I'm often looking for the wrong things. To find what I need, I need to recognise what I need more. What actually energises me? What inspires me? What stops me finding those things?
Am I finding more of my true self when writing? Am I finding more of a long buried dream? Am I finding the words that fight to stay hidden? 
I don't really have answers to any of these questions yet. I didn't really know I had all of them until my fingers started typing them. 

This post was written as part of Five Minute Friday- writing in a five minute time limit on a prompt word without editing (ok I struggle with that bit and do read over as I go) and allowing free reign to thoughts. Have a look at what others have written here:

Friday, 14 August 2015

Learn: Five Minute Friday

I had a yearning this morning to get some space in my head and get the thoughts and plans on to paper. So I took my daughter for a walk to the park on a glorious morning and sat with my new blog planning kit to explore a topic for the Write 31 Days challenge coming up in October.

The one year anniversary of starting this blog is fast approaching (Write 31 Days last year!!). I reflected on what I have learned about myself in that time. I don't write regularly like I want to. I can't always find the words to express what is in my head. But I do learn more about what is in my heart and get greater understanding of my own thoughts by writing them down. That is really what this blog is about for me right now. I'm not that interested in building a brand or anything. It is purely me and processing my thoughts. If others are touched by those thoughts, even better. That is at the heart of what I have learned about the importance of my blog in my life. 

I am still not 100% sure I will take part this year but I have a clearer picture of what I might cover if I do. Watch this space for what else I learn I guess!!

Written for the Five Minute Friday prompt this week. Check out the other contributors here.

If you are interested in the blog planning kit from Kat Lee I have started using, check out this link (it is an affiliate link)

Saturday, 1 August 2015

What I Learned in July

How can so much life have happened in only one month? I may not be able to express all that is in my heart from this month just yet but these are a few of the things I have learned or re-learned this month.

  • Turning 30 is awesome!

I joke that I've felt so much older for so long that the numbers are just starting to catch up. Not far from the truth some days! Seriously though, I feel so much more grounded and settled in myself in general, both through maturity with age and through hard healing work with God. It feels like the start of a new decade full of hope, opportunities and the knowledge that I can survive and thrive through the tough times life throws at me.

  • I really love the colour purple, pretty things and butterflies

Photos from how I decorated for my birthday party may show this best!

It has only been in recent times that I have felt confident enough to own having a favourite colour.

  • I am able to make a beautiful cake and have rekindled my love of cake decorating.

  • It really is the simple things in life that can bring joy and rest

One of the ways I celebrated on my actual birthday?- a bath with a bath bomb. It was heavenly and so relaxing. I don't have a bath tub at home so went to my parents' house.
The first things I bought with birthday money? -a soft, cuddly dressing gown and a book.

  • Life is incredibly short and can change in an instant

This is the hardest one to write about. My heart is raw for a family I hardly know but feel strongly connected to through MOPS (Mothers of Preschoolers). Hearing news of someone you are just starting to get to know being given only a week or two to live, knowing she will be leaving behind a four year old little girl is heart wrenching. She passed away last night right on the doctors' prediction. My own life has taken on a whole new perspective of what is important and the ridiculousness of some of what consumes my mind or gets me annoyed. Add to that another woman from my group being in a horrific car accident and another fighting huge health and life battles while in late pregnancy (and still seeking to contribute to the needs of others) and it has been a tough few weeks for our MOPS group. We are all reeling. Through it all is the deep seated knowledge that God is still good and is in control. His peace and presence has been with me. I am learning to dwell with Him more in my everyday life (that may need a post all of its own). There is hope knowing that we will see our friend again one day. My heart is too full and my eyes too blurred with tears to express fully what I want to say right now so that will have to be left for another day.

Linking up with Emily P. Freeman with her monthly "What I Learned" post: